am so inspired by my friend's testimonial on friendster that, i'm going to try writing a nice sincere testimonial for all my friends during the holidays...

then i'll learn programming

then i'll learn to use excel well. yup yup.

Eeevil jeremy has introduced me another game, dungeon keeper...now i'm hooked....and the worst part is, i cannot pass the 6th level , resulting in my sulking all day long....cannot concentrate on studying too....and chem and us lecturer is so sucky...he copied the power point whole sale from the books....and it's a total mess....don't understand why we are learning so much about industrial processes etc....usp should scrap the module if its going to be so....it's like crash course on chem engin. so much info to rem....and i got more stressed out (at first i was stressed coz i'm 2 days behind schedule) when he reminded me that the rest of my classmates, pharmacy classmates are mugging for their pharmacy modules...i haven't started on them yet....stressed...then got no study rooms for me to study in, the he wants to studying in our rooms, then he complain my room is filthy, which is true as well, so i spent a lot of time cleaning my room, even mopping with a small lil rag....now i'm so proud of my clean room.....but still stressed.!!

studying, and being tempted to play SC or sleep or surf the net every now and now....

found out that my cyberarts group member, willie, is Charles' cousin.....!!!!....!!!! OMG....the eye candy i had known from union camp....now that i don't see him around in school, i see his cousin all the time....

gosh, come to think of it, my eyes were immediately tuned to willie during first class of cyberarts, of course, together will all the other people i know....did i mentally make a note to include a SoC person in my group? after all i formed the group.....hmmm, distinctly remembered struggling to make an effort to remember what everybody said and their majors and their experience and their strengths in art or technology expertise.

now that cyberarts is over....sighzzzz, next sem, my group's video will be curated in the NUS museums.....so cool!!!

want to go PS shopping....today got great sale...till midnight....wonder how criwded it will be....

i know i should be studying....oh shit!!!got LSM assignment haven't do....ok, well, this is a fine example of how grace thinks....thought process.

slept 4 hours. powerpoint presentation was terrible, needed to redo most part of it....the presentation is 15% of the final grade loh...that's pretty much what makes an A coz everybody does well in all the tests....spent 7 hours researching for new info and pictures and revamping the powerpoint from 8pm onwards....explains the sleeping period.

so sleepy now....i'm just waiting for my time to come

jialut.... now i'm hooked on starcraft.....play until no need sleep, back pain also never mind.....

so happy video art project turned out so well.....it's a surprise....it's really worth all the pains that we went through, and the thinking process....we took half a month to come up with the idea....and it's great that it's such a good idea and it encompasses a sizeable theme......

me video going to be shown in australia too!! so excited....but didn't realise i was exposing my boobs to the whole world....but i don't really mind....it's not as if they are deformed and i want to hide it....

FINALLy beat jeremy in scrabble by 40 over points!!!

~~yawnz....so sleepy~~~

DID YOU KNOW...
that the second last picture in the previous post has a house in it??? i really didn't see it until i saw the thumbnail of it.

watch scooby doo 2 on friday night.....midnight show.....was not very very funny.....more like dumb.....but ok lah.......really didn't mind because i got to eat my tacos......

so proud of myself, i created the starting page of my net art project....

http://uspstu.scholars.nus.edu.sg/2003sem2/grp2/index.htm

go check it out and feedback !

went to Singapore Art Museum today for cyberarts field trip........very nice....all the art pieces.....among them there's this art piece called TV-buddha...now who's worshiping who.... the tv faces the buddha statue all day and vice versa....the tv carries the image of the buddha statue.....but i didn't get a pic of it...you've got to see it yourself...

however, i got this cook art piece called the adieu 1 by ger van elk....its a pic of a painting of a guy waving and walking away (into the painting....


the following are connected...it's called rhythm and song....naturally, i'm attracted to its brillant colours...the colours sort of brings out the music that the women in the painting are playing...




this one is my favourite.....abstract art.... reminds me of vincent van gorh


this one is titled among men is man.....

watched dirty dancing 2...
plot was very very cliche.....but i always dig the dancing.....very cool dancing....was telling myself, that if dirty dancing 2 has all the moves from dirty dancing 1......i'll rate the movie terrible....

but i was wrong....the movie's set in cuba....and there's this latino thingy and marackers....(don't know how to spell it).....it's a very irresistible beat....makes you want to moovvve your hips as well....but unfortunately....we don't know how to.....

want to download the cuban music.....kool!

was reading this book "the gift" or something....distributed by campus crusade..... cool book....it tells what the bible says in a very easy to understand story kind of way......

read this part whereby Jesus made a very selfless choice to leave home so as to preach to others......if it was me....i'll never have the courage to do so.....what complete belief and trust!!!!

was thinking, God doesn't do things so that we return his love....he doesn't expect it.....just like friendship, or love, you give and you don't expect anything in return......and yet.....it is the way preachers word the idea....to make us feel that Jesus gave up and suffered so so so so much for us, thus, we should give up material things and selfish gains, and do more for the ministry "in return" of His Kindness......BUT, they always emphasize that what we do is never enough to compare to Jesus....it's just this idea of reciprocating that we, our conscience, feels...that we must do something in return....we are being treated so well....etc etc....come to think of it, feel a bit exploited lah.....

managed to program my ideal homepage......but....still can't tackle blogger...
will study javascript more intensely in the holidays

am still so obssessed with tala and filipino.

slept for the longest time today.....slept at 2am til 11.30am....then did some stuff, only to sleep again at 2pm till like 4pm when i decided that i should go for the last lecture for one of my modules. but it was boring and because the lecturer didn't bother to write down the mathematical derivations, the people were so confused....but it wasn't that fun because he was rushing thru the lecture...no time to tell stories....

was really happy and grateful to faith for lending me her book.....finished it already.....love the name of the little girl....tala!....tala!...sounds so nice...so innocent...so carefree. not as inspiring as the first book but...it's definitely a book you keep and read again when you're down, or have lost your meaning in life......good book....

5 more weeks to exams...i'm still not very anxious yet, saw that julia from my chem class has started revision....can't revise the subject now lah...i'll just get sick of it and forget all the details when the exams draw near......

got fever and very bad sore throat. think my brain has been fired....been doing stupid things like holding on to my comb until i left the building....then i wonder why i didn't left it in my room....then while brushing my teeth, put cleanser on my toothbrush...!!!!

my video for my food junkie got erased from the computer memory....period!

went on my long awaited shopping trip today. found the right person for it, lingz. but also becuz of me, i made her late for school (prep for openhouse)

was really long awaited.....had one month of mid-terms is is not in the middle of the term or sem at all. glad to note that i passed my practical with satisfying marks...92 average, 80 for solution, 96 for capsules (careless mistake) and 100 marks for external use lotion. heh...

and also, my physio test which i forgot how to answer the 7 mark question which i studied 2 days before the test. the paper was upon 40..... got 83.8 percent....ok lah....

then the lsm test....remember that it was the memorable rainy monday in which it rained for 20 hours. didn't take proper note that i had to go for the morning tutorial...which will help in my 2nd physio test...so i slept till....12? i forgot how many hours i slept and what time i slept... but....the paper was structured in sure a way that, it's very dependent on what the lecturer wants to allocate marks for....and the best part was that we didn't have a clue as to what the lecturers want.....but still hope to identify myself with the second bell curve which is on the high end of the spectrum. basically, for lsm module...the engineers are having a great disadvantage for not taking bio in jc. but i believe some of them did.....see!! want to take the easy way out in jc....take double sci and double maths....go home early everyday lah!

oh, yah, must remember to mention that i learnt how to play starcraft when i went over to jeremy's house during the weekend. was supposed to stay in the hostel and study for the 2 tests in that week.....but..=|...yah, affirmed the fact that grace cannot play computer games at all.

went shopping at far east and mostly og orchard point. spent so much money......i think i spent about $200 this week for eating and shopping already. during tests...i tend to buy and stock up on chocolates and potato chips....so.....spent alot....also updated my wardrobe.....that will teach yixiong to complain that i have no clothes to wear!but that a secondary concern.

the main thing was that i got to buy a black spag top which i've always wondered why i don't own one, looking at how many black tops i have. and a blue spag top....amazing why i don't have one of my fav colour too. and a sun surf top, which wanling describes as sweet, i think it's beachy...and its the design which i've been wanting to buy for a long time too.....and i finally got a sports bra which is of affordable price too.....

am so happy. but not very happy when i keep seeing the figures on my receipts which i used nets card to pay....did quite abit of personal grooming as well. first time go at manicure....feels good, great actually, but i tend to spoil it too fast.....plucked eyebrows....please my mum...she says my friend pluck not very professional....and it became apparently so when the beautician asked if my friend helped me to pluck.....and shave.

and in my fickle mindedness, i got persuaded by the salesgirl to buy a silver bracelet and necklace....bracelet is good but necklace...i have 3 necklaces from jeremy excluding the ones i have...and i seldom wear them....on my way back, the idea of giving the whole set of jewellery to my mom for her birthday hit me.....feels so much better knowing that the money i spent wasn't entirely for me....

got to thank lingz for shopping with me. check out the black top she bought from phuturelondon.....

as usual, i'm slacking away while i should be conscienciously doing my homework....tata...

fayeth>>better i blog a lot t one time than i don't blog, or blog 5 times a day.....

spent the whole weekend and monday living like a hermit, didn't check my emails etc....

learnt to play starcraft.....but i suck at it BIG time......yah......need lots of help and advice and practice ;)

clearing my mailsand assignments now, realise i have 1 interview and 2 presentations due by next week for one module. not to mention that i have physio test this thurs.....killer subject......haven't study yet.....cerebral system and kidney leh....but then the kidney hor.....focus is on heart problems one.....weird lecturer....

Remember a time long ago,
long long ago,
when you were barely taller than your parents' knees and walked hand in hand with one hand in each of theirs?
that was when you would be cuddled and fondly told "you're the best thing in my life, you're my inspiration"

Remember a time long ago,
yet not far away,
when nature was your inspiration and harmony was beauty and perfection?
that was when you sit around hours on end to bask in their presence, for life's inspiration.

Do you recognise a time,
very recently coined.
When Lemmings jumped over the cliff into the valley of hip-o-creatures?
that's when you almost became one of them, except that you have learnt from the hippo song.

Heart of Crystal


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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when i don't get respect and appreciation, the crystal is chipped.

feel OFF, like not happening, not alive, not making full use of my time. it's the weekend, i have no lessons tomorrow and i'm not going out. one good reason not to is that the a level students will be running all over. celebrating, sobbing.....

what did i do last year? i think i went straight home, none of my friends were in an outrageously good mood to celebrate.

don't like people. prefer machines. what's the use of acting cute an giving half-hearted praises. i think i need someone to talk to. some one who can make me feel confident, someone whom i respect, someone who's been through all this but is not in anything. i think i know who. but would it be weird receiving a distress call at 7 am in the morning? great way to sadden the whole day right?

need to find my essence, my roots, myself again.

am procrastinating my spiritual development, my studies as well. guess it's true. the moment i kick God out of my life, everything goes wrong.

i'm conditioned to think that anything that's bad happening to me is because I am not at peace with God. and vice-versa. however, i'm less sensitive to my happiness.

i have no stamina and determination. i want out, NOW!
(goes back and sob inside)

*afterthought*
i really told myself not to feel so hurt that i incurred the wrath of someone time and again. "you can't please anyone" but.....but.....it's not as if i don't care. in fact, i care a lot about this. i figured out that i was made better without a mouth. and my fingers would do a better job talking. the reason being i type slower than i talk. so i think faster than i type. so i can backspace. yah! typing allows backspace!

go away, all ye who don't understand me. (i'm of course not talking to the correct audience here, but i have time on my hands and i need somewhere to vent my tots)

this is a long blog but many times, if only i have a PDA with me, you'll see much more tots. it's just like the time when i was with jh and i write down almost everything i see hear and think, mostly think to him. that was when i transformed from a one finger typist to a 3 finger one. still don't use the last 2 fingers, got weak fingers, can't play piano.

bombed myself again. it's not that i'm wrong or what. it's just....humans!....i want my girl friends back.

i should have adopted jh and josh's attitude when i adopted their style. now i'm neither here nor there. smses with no smileys no full stops no commas, no nothing except spaces and letters. question marks and everything else.