MY Birthday! (on monday)
am very happy, although there were no big parties nor numerous presents. i was very happy to see so many people gather at chatterbox on monday evening to wish me happy birthday. Ling organised everything and got me a delicious chocolate blueberry cake. Dajie and BK are the unexpected people who stayed... next would be alvin, waikit and jielin. Utterly comforted was i, when faith, rena, simin were there too, it showed that i still had them as my friends... i hope i always will.
we went to macs to have dinner after that... enjoyed ourselves...we talked about lots of things...wrong things....disgusting things... but it made as roll around in laughter. (of course we didn't literally roll away at Macs) Felt touched when Cherie got me what she thought was a cheese cake from spinelli.... it was a wonderful finishing touch for an 8 hr lecture day. today she came up with more gifts... a large soup bowl and plate.... perfect for me to whip up meals at the pgp kitchen.... Thanks girl..
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Went shopping today.
we bought lots of things. Note: Sim Lim is a very sinful palce to shop at... you spend lots and lots of money there. I bought a new, good, nice black bag and a purple knee-length skirt from Bugis village. and the bag is my christmas present.....bought a massager and CDRs from Sim Lim. CDRs for my sister to rip all the music she wants from her classmates. bought a pair of blue contact lenses.. for fun... have been wanting to get them for more than a year...
went to queensway too, bought another pair of FBT shorts for myself and jeremy's birthday present: a sweater, just so he can wear it on Campus at Munich, though it'll probably be useless at those temperatures. He didn't want me to learn knitting or pick up knitting again or knit anything for him...what to do...
Dun think for a moment that i was the one buying everything. jeremy bought alot more things. he bought an ultra cool and nice sporty backpack for his laptop, the bag has very very good padding. bought earphones, 40GB hard disk and hard disk drive, microphone for his parents to audio conference with him, running shoes, jeans, luggage strap yada yada...that's the best reason why he enjoyed today's shopping.
was clearing my table and i fell upon this note i wrote, from the USP academic symposium which i only attended after Dr Vivian Balakrishnan arrived:
Today attended Academic symposium and found myself totally brainwashed by Vivian. the way he spoke was so smooth, ideas flowed from one to another seamlessly, leading his audience slowly yet steadily to the opinions and points which he wants to convey. i found it hard to concurr any independent thought of my own. I've gained a deeper understanding to the word equality. having a concept of "ah Lian" or "ah Beng" is as good as being prejudiced against coloured people.... against races, against people who subscribe to a religion different as your own. It's worse than discrimination against the poor.
I also didn't know that there's a deeper reason to why Singapore's excessive support for charities etc. not only does it ensure a sense of security among the people, if they become disabled one day, they can count on being taken care of, it also makes a statement to the world, that Singapore does not ill-treat the disabled/handicapped but treat them with respect and kindness. that, all the countries out there in the world should also take a leaf out of Singapore and treat Singapore (a handicapped nation) with respect and kindness. and i didn't think about it this way until Dr Vivian pointed it out.
we bought lots of things. Note: Sim Lim is a very sinful palce to shop at... you spend lots and lots of money there. I bought a new, good, nice black bag and a purple knee-length skirt from Bugis village. and the bag is my christmas present.....bought a massager and CDRs from Sim Lim. CDRs for my sister to rip all the music she wants from her classmates. bought a pair of blue contact lenses.. for fun... have been wanting to get them for more than a year...
went to queensway too, bought another pair of FBT shorts for myself and jeremy's birthday present: a sweater, just so he can wear it on Campus at Munich, though it'll probably be useless at those temperatures. He didn't want me to learn knitting or pick up knitting again or knit anything for him...what to do...
Dun think for a moment that i was the one buying everything. jeremy bought alot more things. he bought an ultra cool and nice sporty backpack for his laptop, the bag has very very good padding. bought earphones, 40GB hard disk and hard disk drive, microphone for his parents to audio conference with him, running shoes, jeans, luggage strap yada yada...that's the best reason why he enjoyed today's shopping.
was clearing my table and i fell upon this note i wrote, from the USP academic symposium which i only attended after Dr Vivian Balakrishnan arrived:
Today attended Academic symposium and found myself totally brainwashed by Vivian. the way he spoke was so smooth, ideas flowed from one to another seamlessly, leading his audience slowly yet steadily to the opinions and points which he wants to convey. i found it hard to concurr any independent thought of my own. I've gained a deeper understanding to the word equality. having a concept of "ah Lian" or "ah Beng" is as good as being prejudiced against coloured people.... against races, against people who subscribe to a religion different as your own. It's worse than discrimination against the poor.
I also didn't know that there's a deeper reason to why Singapore's excessive support for charities etc. not only does it ensure a sense of security among the people, if they become disabled one day, they can count on being taken care of, it also makes a statement to the world, that Singapore does not ill-treat the disabled/handicapped but treat them with respect and kindness. that, all the countries out there in the world should also take a leaf out of Singapore and treat Singapore (a handicapped nation) with respect and kindness. and i didn't think about it this way until Dr Vivian pointed it out.
Sunday, September 26, 2004
i find myself in a crisis. Jeremy is leaving in 7 days, i have tests and deadlines to meet, my dance lessons are ending...seems that all my pleasures are going to be taken away from me in a matter of days.
is it a coincidence that my birthday is just around the corner, signalling to me that i have to mature whether i like it or not. and every year when i mature, i would have to meet my ex, my first love actually. it's not really torture but something close. have i mentioned that i still can't help feeling jealous about jx and him. but still, every year, i bring myself to meet him, to check if he's still living, to see whether i can get over him, and shamelessly hoping to hear news of his breakup. nonetheless, we never touch on these issues when we meet, only small talk about books and maybe music. that's all. how sad.
is it a coincidence that my birthday is just around the corner, signalling to me that i have to mature whether i like it or not. and every year when i mature, i would have to meet my ex, my first love actually. it's not really torture but something close. have i mentioned that i still can't help feeling jealous about jx and him. but still, every year, i bring myself to meet him, to check if he's still living, to see whether i can get over him, and shamelessly hoping to hear news of his breakup. nonetheless, we never touch on these issues when we meet, only small talk about books and maybe music. that's all. how sad.
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Have been wanting to blog for the whole week.... just take i've either been going out or "studying" in my room that i haven't had the real time to sit down and blog. and Stats prac lessson is the best time... esp when your lecturer wepeats himself all the time.
Went to orchard on sunday night. i'm a naughty girl, i told my mum i'm coming back to school for term break to study. but nevertheless, i "benefitted" quite a bit from the outing. i wore the usp camp t shirt out.... and jeremy couldn't stand it. and this is coming from an engin guy who dresses shabbily all the time. he justifies himself saying that although he dresses shabbily, he never wears something so ugly....(no offence to the designer of the camp t-shirt). we hunted up and down far east plaza to get me a suitable set of top and skirt so that i don't have to be such an eye sore. so yay, for once the guy willingly shops with you... hahaha. at the end of the day, managed to buy this asymmetric leaf skirt and my adnce latino skirt, and a rose black top.... then we went to kino to buy books. bought $110 worth of books so i got him the kino membership card so that he saves about $10....
(alright, lecturer is chasing us out because he wants to end early... shall continue...)
[continue...]
so... that's in part, my present to jeremy for his birthday... but really, i never know what to get him. he takes care of all his needs, he needs it he buys... maybe not all, he tries to make me pay for his newly acquired books... but it's so pointless contributing to his 100 plus books.
maybe it's my laziness, but i think it doesn't take a special occasion to buy him stuff, i agree that it's very nice and sweet to buy him treats and presents for a good reason. and come to think of it... i don't shower him gifts.. so i guess i do have to put in effort to do something for him especially when he's leaving next week... so soon.... 8 more days only. the reality and totality of it still hasn't sunk in.
many other things happened along the week... but all seems to trivial to be remembered or brought up. Not when i've just completed reading Blood canticle by Anne Rice...if i'm not wrong, her latest vampire chronicles book. (poor thing, her husband is dead and yet she's so capable of love, especially the kind which i crave, the kind which she elucidates in her books... that's why i'm hooked. then why aren't i hooked by all those romance novels out there... i guess Anne rice writes of something more carnal....and yet without all the carnal action. writes of love... love of beautiful people, love of intelligent people, the way she expresses her characters, makes me deeply in love with them, the way they should be. the use of opposites: having a self proclaimed selfish fiend deny selfish possession of the lover he loved too much.
then there's the prefect husband, probably the representative of anne rice's own husband...but yet fails terribly at his role...having an affair, not being able to console her when she's terribly distraught..and not being able to sire an children in his wife. so helpless....so pitiful.
i find that Anne rice's ideology about beautiful people has affected me a lot... so much so that it's one of the traits which i look for in my partners/lovers/boyfriends/crushes. and that of vanity (thinks about the coincidental theme of my big success video art, which is also vanity)...doing things for the sake of vanity, not only for looks, but of what people perceive of you. you do good to glorify yourself for others to see.
i guess it's clear rite now that i want the passionate lover... the passionate Blood Child, the brat prince Lestat. but try as i might, i cannot be the kind of target of such affection. i have nothing in my character nor ability that warrants such rupturous love.
Went to orchard on sunday night. i'm a naughty girl, i told my mum i'm coming back to school for term break to study. but nevertheless, i "benefitted" quite a bit from the outing. i wore the usp camp t shirt out.... and jeremy couldn't stand it. and this is coming from an engin guy who dresses shabbily all the time. he justifies himself saying that although he dresses shabbily, he never wears something so ugly....(no offence to the designer of the camp t-shirt). we hunted up and down far east plaza to get me a suitable set of top and skirt so that i don't have to be such an eye sore. so yay, for once the guy willingly shops with you... hahaha. at the end of the day, managed to buy this asymmetric leaf skirt and my adnce latino skirt, and a rose black top.... then we went to kino to buy books. bought $110 worth of books so i got him the kino membership card so that he saves about $10....
(alright, lecturer is chasing us out because he wants to end early... shall continue...)
[continue...]
so... that's in part, my present to jeremy for his birthday... but really, i never know what to get him. he takes care of all his needs, he needs it he buys... maybe not all, he tries to make me pay for his newly acquired books... but it's so pointless contributing to his 100 plus books.
maybe it's my laziness, but i think it doesn't take a special occasion to buy him stuff, i agree that it's very nice and sweet to buy him treats and presents for a good reason. and come to think of it... i don't shower him gifts.. so i guess i do have to put in effort to do something for him especially when he's leaving next week... so soon.... 8 more days only. the reality and totality of it still hasn't sunk in.
many other things happened along the week... but all seems to trivial to be remembered or brought up. Not when i've just completed reading Blood canticle by Anne Rice...if i'm not wrong, her latest vampire chronicles book. (poor thing, her husband is dead and yet she's so capable of love, especially the kind which i crave, the kind which she elucidates in her books... that's why i'm hooked. then why aren't i hooked by all those romance novels out there... i guess Anne rice writes of something more carnal....and yet without all the carnal action. writes of love... love of beautiful people, love of intelligent people, the way she expresses her characters, makes me deeply in love with them, the way they should be. the use of opposites: having a self proclaimed selfish fiend deny selfish possession of the lover he loved too much.
then there's the prefect husband, probably the representative of anne rice's own husband...but yet fails terribly at his role...having an affair, not being able to console her when she's terribly distraught..and not being able to sire an children in his wife. so helpless....so pitiful.
i find that Anne rice's ideology about beautiful people has affected me a lot... so much so that it's one of the traits which i look for in my partners/lovers/boyfriends/crushes. and that of vanity (thinks about the coincidental theme of my big success video art, which is also vanity)...doing things for the sake of vanity, not only for looks, but of what people perceive of you. you do good to glorify yourself for others to see.
i guess it's clear rite now that i want the passionate lover... the passionate Blood Child, the brat prince Lestat. but try as i might, i cannot be the kind of target of such affection. i have nothing in my character nor ability that warrants such rupturous love.
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Thursday: Suddenly feel like celebrating my approximately one-year relationship with jeremy. We totally forgot to take note of dates etc. i'm not the kind who remembers dates, i remember events. something between the Welfare com bash (11/9) last year and the bizcom bash/my birthday (27/9), we got together.... so...thursday being my free day, i decided to treat him to fusion, nice food and ambience, but cannot go out of school, he has lessons later. and it so happened that it was raining... in a way good, coz i brought an umbrella and i have "good" reasons to hold on to him while walking to fusion, in the rain.
Friday: went out to watch DODGEBALL after 8 hours of lecture. very lame and stupid show... especially the "bai hao ren"....but it was a good luagh... worth the money, you all should go watch it and de-stress.
Friday: went out to watch DODGEBALL after 8 hours of lecture. very lame and stupid show... especially the "bai hao ren"....but it was a good luagh... worth the money, you all should go watch it and de-stress.
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
Delicious Oriental Dory Gratin from Fusion... Josh tried it on saturday... very nice... cheese and all... too bad i cannot eat it....but it's very nice...then we played pool. he sunk 6 balls before i even sink any... for a moment there, i tot i'm going to get whooped....haha but in the end, we were both fight for the black ball. needless to say, Josh won... then playing badminton...but had to end prematurely coz i had to go home...so sorry that Josh lost his fountain pen. i still can't find it.
Saturday, September 11, 2004
> > >Today's lesson - Girls must be convinced,so learn to promote
> yourself -
> > >convince them that 'Engineers are the Best Boyfriends'
> > >Let me tell you why girls should eventually marry an
> > >engineer over a Law, Management, Arts or Medical School
> > >Graduate. He has three distinct advantages over the
> > >rest of the graduates.
> > >
> > >Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle
> > >
> > >An engineer boyfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle.
> > >At 27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable
> job
> > >that gives him a high income to own a car, invest, have a
> > >comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too. Law
> > >graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in law
> > >firm, most management graduates have just failed
> > >on their first business plan, the acts graduate is still looking
> for
> > >a job, and the medical school graduate is still living
> > >in a hospital.
> > >
> > >Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness
> > >
> > >An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an unimaginable
> > >amount of his time and effort to understand you.
> > >Engineers strain really really hard to understand
> > >their work. You can believe that they will try really
> > >really hard to understand women too, just like how
> > >they understand their work, once they believe that you
> > >are the one. So even if they don't understand you
> > >initially, they will keep on trying. Even if they
> > >still do not understand, they will figure out the
> > >correct method to keep you happy
> > >(e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of happiness.)
> > >And once they find out the secret formula, they will
> > >just keep on repeating it so that the desired
> > >results appear. Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with
> > >you, the Management graduate who will try to
> > >control your spending, the Arts graduate who
> > >will 'change major', and the medical school graduate who
> > >will operate on you. And you know what, it's really so
> > >easy to make engineers believe that you are
> > >the 'one'. Say that you like one of their projects and they
> > >will be hooked to you forever.
> > >
> > >Advantage 3:
> > >
> > >An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust.
> > >Let me first tell you what is wrong with
> > >the rest of the others - the lawyers will lie
> > >about everything, management graduates will cheat your
> > >money, the arts graduate will flirt, and you probably
> > >just look like another cadaver to the medical school
> > >graduate. Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy
> > >to have an affair, and even if he does, he is too
> > >dumb to lie to you about that. Hence, an engineer is
> > >the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find -
> > >rich enough, will keep on trying to understand and
> > >please you, has no time for affairs, and too dumb to
> > >lie to you. So girls, why procrastinate?
> > >
> > >Get an ENGINEER as your boyfriend!
> yourself -
> > >convince them that 'Engineers are the Best Boyfriends'
> > >Let me tell you why girls should eventually marry an
> > >engineer over a Law, Management, Arts or Medical School
> > >Graduate. He has three distinct advantages over the
> > >rest of the graduates.
> > >
> > >Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle
> > >
> > >An engineer boyfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle.
> > >At 27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable
> job
> > >that gives him a high income to own a car, invest, have a
> > >comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too. Law
> > >graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in law
> > >firm, most management graduates have just failed
> > >on their first business plan, the acts graduate is still looking
> for
> > >a job, and the medical school graduate is still living
> > >in a hospital.
> > >
> > >Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness
> > >
> > >An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an unimaginable
> > >amount of his time and effort to understand you.
> > >Engineers strain really really hard to understand
> > >their work. You can believe that they will try really
> > >really hard to understand women too, just like how
> > >they understand their work, once they believe that you
> > >are the one. So even if they don't understand you
> > >initially, they will keep on trying. Even if they
> > >still do not understand, they will figure out the
> > >correct method to keep you happy
> > >(e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of happiness.)
> > >And once they find out the secret formula, they will
> > >just keep on repeating it so that the desired
> > >results appear. Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with
> > >you, the Management graduate who will try to
> > >control your spending, the Arts graduate who
> > >will 'change major', and the medical school graduate who
> > >will operate on you. And you know what, it's really so
> > >easy to make engineers believe that you are
> > >the 'one'. Say that you like one of their projects and they
> > >will be hooked to you forever.
> > >
> > >Advantage 3:
> > >
> > >An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust.
> > >Let me first tell you what is wrong with
> > >the rest of the others - the lawyers will lie
> > >about everything, management graduates will cheat your
> > >money, the arts graduate will flirt, and you probably
> > >just look like another cadaver to the medical school
> > >graduate. Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy
> > >to have an affair, and even if he does, he is too
> > >dumb to lie to you about that. Hence, an engineer is
> > >the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find -
> > >rich enough, will keep on trying to understand and
> > >please you, has no time for affairs, and too dumb to
> > >lie to you. So girls, why procrastinate?
> > >
> > >Get an ENGINEER as your boyfriend!
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Today is a happy day
i changed my laptop cursor to an angel and the waiting cursor to a peeling banana....ahahhaha...
and i bumped into this guy i got to know from dance class right after my practical and we went to the central library to study together. then i met weijie, who's the super busy man 3 times in a row... not pre mediated. first time i saw him at the sci bus stop then after that at the arts canteen and after that at the central library. although for the first 2 times i failed to call out to him and get his attention. nonetheless, he promised me a lunch date tomorrow. then some time in between my studying at central library, Colin called to say they are celebrating Emily's birthday at Macs... so i went over to be treated with chocolate fudge sundae.
later, still charged on my present happiness, i'll be playing badminton with peixin and jeremy and after that go for dance class.... hope everything goes well for today and continues to go well tmr....
i changed my laptop cursor to an angel and the waiting cursor to a peeling banana....ahahhaha...
and i bumped into this guy i got to know from dance class right after my practical and we went to the central library to study together. then i met weijie, who's the super busy man 3 times in a row... not pre mediated. first time i saw him at the sci bus stop then after that at the arts canteen and after that at the central library. although for the first 2 times i failed to call out to him and get his attention. nonetheless, he promised me a lunch date tomorrow. then some time in between my studying at central library, Colin called to say they are celebrating Emily's birthday at Macs... so i went over to be treated with chocolate fudge sundae.
later, still charged on my present happiness, i'll be playing badminton with peixin and jeremy and after that go for dance class.... hope everything goes well for today and continues to go well tmr....
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Monday, September 06, 2004
Thursday, September 02, 2004
just returned from the tv room. saw zhonghe and this girl he's been hanging out with the whole day, inside. thinkest me, they are going to be a couple. watched parliment news and singapore idol results... very boring... then played bridge. all this after i returned from the gym. quite satisfied with myself. i even read thru all my law tut before going to the gym and did laundry and folded all the clothes after that. =)
for a start, after a long break from the gym, 40 mins workout is quite ok lah... realise that my fitness really cannot make it... 5 mins on the step master, and i cannot take it anymore. did 15 mins on the stationary bike and then 1.6km.... think must go and swim again... my arms are accumulating fats again... and i want to get nicer thighs...
i think i'm really growing old... my taste of radio stations have changed from perfect 10 to class 95.
for a start, after a long break from the gym, 40 mins workout is quite ok lah... realise that my fitness really cannot make it... 5 mins on the step master, and i cannot take it anymore. did 15 mins on the stationary bike and then 1.6km.... think must go and swim again... my arms are accumulating fats again... and i want to get nicer thighs...
i think i'm really growing old... my taste of radio stations have changed from perfect 10 to class 95.
oh shit... deleted a whole lot of crap i typed in about last night's dance escapade. whatever. shall whine about the amount of work i need to do and at the same time make a list:
econs term paper proposal
econs response paper
pharmacy law project powerpoint presentation
physical pharmacy research summary
lsm tut
pharm law tut
dispensing practical report
dosage form practical report.... die.... seems like a lot... i better get started.
econs term paper proposal
econs response paper
pharmacy law project powerpoint presentation
physical pharmacy research summary
lsm tut
pharm law tut
dispensing practical report
dosage form practical report.... die.... seems like a lot... i better get started.
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