Salsa Withdrawal symptoms

i'm experiencing salsa withdrawal symptoms, i've been dreaming everyday of this same dimly lit place, where girls wear 3 and a half inch heels and do cool sorts of sexy moves, while there is a shortage of able-to-dance guys....

i want to go back to my hostel room. why? then i can complete all my practicals, do more research for my ride-on module, then i can catch up on my lectures and be ready for the next lap of school. yah, and also do more results processing for my urops... so that my urops report won't kill me later on in the semester.

all these, coupled with spending time with my friends, going out, and with jeremy. and at the same time, get rid of my eye bags... is that not possible? i don't like rotting at home, i prefer to do work all the time, consistently.

but my mom won't allow me to go back, coz its late already. and i'm scared of the night, in a foreign country.

eating mango frozen yoghurt now....

CNY in malaysia is good. coz then your whole neighbour will be setting off wonderful fireworks on the stroke of 12!.... red green, purple, blue.... wah... one house finish already, then another house start. so i just sit in the garden, on our stainless steel swing and watch. and there was a pleasant breeze as well!

had a wonderful home-cooked reunion dinner... mostly cooked by me.... so proud of myself. there was 2 kg of prawns, so we butter fried it in flour. took me so long to finish frying it....that we had to scrap cooking abalone and mixed veg, so that we can start eating at 8pm. there was also sweet sour chicken and herbal chicken... haha, for the person who cannot eat seafood.... and rendang and briyani.... weird mix.

was a good dinner i guess, my bro was making his own brand of prawn burger, with rice and carrot and prawn...our dogs had a good dinner too. haha

after that went to cousins' house to paly mahjong, i diao zhuang for so long, i think the rest of them got fed up, so i relinquished my winning seat to someone else, before all of them gang up against me. then we kooped cards from my cousins, brought it home and played bridge. in my sister's world, none of her friends know who to play bridge, only her dear siblings.... coz yours truly took the painstaking effort of educating them. wonder if its a good thing or not, coz my sister has learnt the game too early in life, and is excelling at it....everytime we pair up, we win, then we get to eat Merci chocolate. that was the reward for winning.... haha.

My favourite things
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things
Cream colored ponies and crisp apple streudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel so bad

Today is the eve of CNY eve. Jeremy has been taken away by his dad. to see his malaysian relatives. and his hp has no batt.

now i'm lonely. nobody to make supper for me. or massage me and my tired feet, or play dota with me.

lonely. saw my freshies taking a jog in the night. must admit it's a very pleasant and windy day, good day to run. but somehow, jeremy and me no longer take such night jogs because i'm just too tired after salsa. and if i dun go to xenbar, i'll want to rest or catch up on school work.

it's true, i have no time for him anymore. but if i dun push myself now, i'll never. so, i'm very sorry to do this to him.

The night is so cold

Time to update more...

Time, one of the 2 lacks in one's life. first i blogged about money, now i complain about time. i hardly have time all week to slack and blog, and think about what constructive things i can use the internet with. all week i've either been doing/processing practical results or going for salsa. school's hectic. don't know what will it be like when the tests start rolling in. sigh.

the week started bad, with me having serious gastric problems, as a result i missed prac on monday. so i had to make-up for it on wed afternoon. so i've been having prac everyday, including urops. for the urops part i'm glad that i've got good results so far. just got to repeat it 2 more times, to confirm it. and thanks to spending hours on the UV machine in urops, the results for my pharm analysis prac has a correlation of 0.9985!!! that's super good... yeah!

then i taught my first salsa basic lesson on thursday, was a nervous rack! but i got a lift from cherie's brian and took mrt down. to my disappointment, there was no food for me. but luckily tori bought macs, my favourite too: mcWings. so grudgingly, i ate some of her dinner. must rem all her encouragement too, she also taught me her signature shine moves, which i only tried once. she's also half an idol to me, like yanqing....

but anyway, everybody helped me. edmund kept time and told me when to start the class, james was giving his usual dose of advice, but i'm not sure whether i want to thank him coz he was the one who reminded justin that we, new instructors, are supposed to start teaching soon. and jianyang, who usually takes the class on thursdays... he gladly demo-ed all the guy steps and took the new student aside for private classes. but other than that, i was being myself; that is, trying to act proand confident and composed etc...

ultimately, i forgot to teach some things. but oh well, "comes with experience". hahaha

some random thingy i found in my inbox...:

>*Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot. *
>
>* Who calls you back when you hang up on him. *
>
>* Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. *
>
>* Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead. *
>
>* Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your
>sweats. *
>
>* Who holds your hand in front of his friends. *
>
>* Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he
>cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. *
>
>* Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's
>her." *


HOW often do we come across guys who fulfill these points

In the Science CBLC now. they say i have to wait for 20 mins for my stuff, which i think is 100 pages there abouts... there's my practical for PK, notes for pharm analysis, and all the PK tutorials, and most importantly, my experiment procedure for my UROPs. i've spent half of my free day already. but it's not unproductive... i woke at 11am... haha, still morning... typed out a good format and set of instructions, for myself, for my urops. then went to eat good food at NUH. yeah, even Jeremy says it's good. but i think there was too little food. hope he doesn't get hungry that soon.

it's 2 pm now.... still waiting for my documents to print...in the mean time i shall update on the biggest thing that has happened to me all week (so far). i signed a 3 year contract!

to work part-time at xen, to learn salsa at professional level, to teach basic class, to be a waitress there (haha). for 3 years
big decision, can't help but think that i'm a bit commitment-phobic. and i think, that commitment phobics are wiser than we give them credit for. you don't rush into things... hope i dun get cheated, hope i'll never regret the day i signed it.. it was monday 090106 by the way.

other than that, tried frog porridge yesterday. the frog is a bit to muscular and lean for my liking... haha and bought a bit of new year goodies: pineapple cheese biscuits, prawn rolls, cashew nut cookies, preseved wintermelon and coconut, taiwan muah chee... =) =) so happy..... good food rolling in......

let me go check on my printing..

i've been very lucky these few days coz i've been having good food. yesterday went to bukit timah market to eat.... very nice, everything. we had bbq spare ribs... omelette, and very special peppermint sugar cane juice. it's quite nice, the taste is very complementary. then had a generous serving or well-made thai ruby dessert... yumm....did i mention that i had french toast for breakfast, with maple syrup? maybe i forgot... haha

then today, we had pancakes.... i liked the crispy parts of it.... again with maple syrup... =) fiona must will fly to pgp if she knew...

Life is unfair.

My mom controls me.

She controls my money. so i can't do anything without her approval. like when i asked her for money today, i've been surviving one whole week with $19 in my bank account, she said she just put money in my account on the 12th.... i wonder if it's 12th nov or dec. then she asked when my scholarship money is coming in.

i'm always thinking, the scholarship money is like extra money for me, a reward or something, given to me by merit. then she thinks its pocket money, so she doesn't have to give me any at all. so i have to squeeze my bank account dry before she gives me pocket money.

i'm ok with that, i understand that the whole family lives off her pay. but apparently, she feels that she's having too much money in her account now. she's bought a new singapore car. when i was fretting the whole time about my pocket money!!! gosh. and everytime i find out how much money they spend on food at home, my heart aches..... to think i even contemplated eating cup noodles sometimes, just to save money.

then i realised another thing: when my bro goes to Uni, and he probably won't get a scholarship. and my mom says she will pay for the tuition fees by cash. if you pay by cpf, he'll have to pay back when he works. but cash.... sigh. my siblings like to compare themselves to me. if i go out on christmas eve, it means, ALL of them have FULL right to do so too. no matter WHAT their age. i'm 21, she's 13? so, if i give my mom $300 every month, he'll do so too. then, where's the "debt" repayment. pocket money? he eats so much, like twice the cost of mine. y can't i use the remaining money to shop? no, i can't use my mom's hard-earned money for shopping. no i can't dye my hair, waste money and damage my hair. no i can't go for salsa. no i can't take part in a CCA which requires me to train or return later than 7pm. no i can't stay in singapore to go out with my friends and boyfriend. no i can't work to earn more pocket money. no i can't give tuition either.

Horoscope for the week?
Libra
you'll be spoilt for choice, but this is not the time for indecision. if you really want to make the most of current opportunities in your work, aim for the top. Even if you fall short, you'll still achieve more than seemed possible. You may, though, be turing the clock back

Sagittarius
recent influences have tended to make you feel trapped between a rock and a hard place, with new responsibilities facing you whicheverway you turn. it's important to realise that any good fortune is of your own making, partly the result of an ambition to help other people.

For the guys who actually read my blog:
It's beginning to look alot like NS
(sung to the tune of "it's beginning to look alot like christmas")

It's beginning to look alot like NS
very soon you'll go
say goodbye to your ol' girlfriend
you won't see her again
when up that green three tonner truck you go
it's beginning to look alot like NS
take it like a man
and don't be over-wrought
for here you'll learn alot
like swearing in Hokkien

a pair of weatherproof boots
and a rifle that shoots
will become your new best pals
and after you're done
when you make friends for fun
you can't talk anything else
and all your wives can't understand
and find you sian as hell

it's beginning to look alot like NS
no use asking why
well-brought up young boys
suddenly like making noise
and yelling [well-known seven syllable
Hokkien expletive deleted]
its beginning to look alot like NS
it will help you grow
so no use being stressed
there's no escape unless
you play great piano

Someone told me today:

You seek questions, and once you find it i think you have found your answer because the questions lead you in a circle

i guess its sort of sums up everything...