very tired.

conquered kent ridge park...and reached pasir panjang road after dinner. and i forgot there's a meeting today.

at 5pm i was like....is there a meeting today? then i checked my diary...no...little did i realise that i didn't update my diary recently....darn...spoil my perfect attendance..

then again, got two very happy things to celebrate...i did well for my physicochem drug action module...one of the tests i took with a sprained left wrist.....got an average mark....32/40...a bit low for my expectations...means i need to work hard but i'm not that stupid in class.... and more importantly, YAYAYAY i finally got the ASEAN undergrad scholarship....yay.....took a big load of my mom's back....

start of new week.....find that i'm dreading to go to my usp module forum......it's like i have to comment but i can't think of something to write everything i go to the forum i have no frame of mind to do any critical thinking. and then i just procrastinate and procrastinate....

just came back from orchard....finally caught pirates of carribean...johnny depp very funny...surprised me alot that cine was sold out for the 9pm show...

took 14 back...quite a short journey....

now it's the start of a new week... a busy one...must buck up and push more contact with my sponsor coz she's too busy for me....and then after this week must plan for the badminton tournament then after that must start serious mugging for my CAs.....so i have to turn down my social life....heard that??as much as i hate to do so....everybody must help me implement this ah...

dejavu....

totally subscribe to the belief that negatives compliment the positives....like lack of something makes having a greater pleasure.

always have this problem of saying no to people....can't bear to say no...in the end i suffer the consequences of my weakness....too little sleep, i end up having a very weak immune system...from my already weak constitution...

yeah, had a good seminar session for my lit class today despite not preparing for it at all, all thanks to the 4 hours of sleep i got just before i went for lesson. sort of impressed the "biggest" threat in class...not really, but i felt that it's a personal thing....a self confidence thingy.

think must start mugging for my upcoming exams and draft my essay too...so i dun get to tied up when the deadline approaches, talking about this, i think must start doing my practical reports too.

am attending nussu agm now....faith thank god you decided that you don't want to and cannot come for this this is so boring....but all thanks to the laptops provided by wanling and marc...books, food etc...it's still quite bearable....not to mention the company lah...the last row occupied by vulcans...

i kind of derived a liking to people identifying sickness in me....proves that i'm so ill that it shows on my face...but i'm happy that i'm still surviving the stress and physical limitations.

talking about stress...i blame my present stress level on src...!@#$%^

am revisiting Queen of the damned, did i ever mentioned that i totally love anne rice's vampire chronicles? but i realised that i've forgotten a lot about all the characters in the chronicles...i only rem pandora and marius, who are, quite obviously my favourite characters.

am participating in a ppol competition tmr, hope i dun make a big foool out on my amatuer skills. haha

realised that this blog is no longer a safe haven for my thoughts anymore, esp someone...but then again when was this place "safe".

am very sick...think my mom foresaw this. she told me i was as pale as a sheet during the weekend...made so much chicken soup for me to drink at home...but in vain, this only managed to delay the onset of flu symptoms till today.

am letting my quality of work decline...usually i take pride in my work...not...it's really hard to be proud of anything i do. feeling quiting my ecas...but i'm already half way sucked in...

WHY CANT I GET A BADMINTON COURT!!!!!

have to delay/postpone the badminton tournament i'm organising indefinitely...my first project and such a failure. hate myself for that.

more reason to hate myself...i look bad in the first photo i took with him...sharks.!!

some more reason: may be someone can list more for me

was actually very happy on tues...went shopping, at metro, and watsons...bought skin care pdts which i normally dun need/use at all, going old. metro had sale, nice clothes...sale plus i had a voucher...buy buy buy

bought this very cute singing/moving unicorn soft toy which i saw a while ago...love it. wonders whether i should give it away or not. nobody buys soft toys for themselves rite?

went jogging to west coast too. man, i really declined in stamina...cannot even run out of nus campus, i think i only ran 1.6 km....failure...but west coast was very nice...nice playground but lots of mosquitoes *scratch scratch*

sick still...

slept 3 hours only last night....how come everybody is so surprised that i bother to wake up for my 8am lectures....actually if i start skipping lectures....what's the point of staying on campus.

am so glad i'm finally spending time at home....slacking....no essays fighting to complete....somehow i think cca work is slacking....will have to go shopping for the food hampers tomorrow...hahaha, giving out food hampers as prizes. inspired idea from one of my friends....this way prizes look big and won't exceed our budget...am glad my sub com is growing...in numbers and in efficiency...yay....

came home, found candle wax everywhere on the porch....think my sisters had a nice maf this yr...mine wasn't that bad either...had 3 celebrations thruout the week...

need to be more resolute about studying and sleeping more...if not i'll slip into a 3rd week of sleeping 3 hours everyday...mind over temptations...mind over temptations.....

so happy today that witnessing turned out really well.

actually the tougher cases were handled by another person...so i was left with the more prepared hearts. . . talked to my classmates too...so nice, we were witnessing to these other two girls at the pharmacy branch of science then my classmates just came and sat down, and i started evangelising to her....it's like she was brought to me....brought to God....then more and more of my classmates attending the same gem came....so happy...

then got so many people who stay at pgp too....got my bible today too....so excited i'm going to read esther....my mom's name...

didn't know evangelising so exciting.....

So long never blog.....kind of miss blogging. it's like although it's a bit of a hussle maintaining this....a blog is sort of a pensieve to me....

so happy to get my beloved laptop back.....just like it when people comment how small and slim my laptop is, how cool i can put in it into a box file and bring it around...hehehehe.....and i like the look of it too....nice nice...=)

can't rem all i want to post here liao....but i've been exploring nus compound more...esp the transport system out of here.....

am sleeping less and less.....before last week i sleep usually at 1am....now it's 3 am...coz whole day chit chatting.....but i enjoy it....

found someone who resembles my ex....bad thing is, i find myself liking him. which probably means i still haven't got over my ex...worse, i seem to see him/purposely see him everyday. bad bad bad....

we are both fans of holland v....so everytime i have something on at night...that i can't watch the show..he will record it down on his laptop then i'll go to his room to watch it when i come back....which is about 10pm.....then last night was some maf thing at pgp. one senior jioed me to go for it, so i jioed everybody i knew down too....so he went too...

i really cannot believe this guy loh. half way disappeared, so i carried on with my other friends....later, got a lantern, so went exploring the pgp back gate to sci park with this other friend A. came back, saw him waving from the second level gym.....excuse: program too boring so i went to gym....

later another friend not staying at pgp joined us with a lantern....wanted to go walk ard...so we entertained him. walk walk walk half way rained heavily....so the 4 of us stranded at a bus stop. the friend took a bus and left for home just before it rained....

was quite cold and wet there...strong winds...the seats were wet....quite bad loh...and i promised to sleep early at 10 pm....we start walking at 10pm....got stranded till 11.30 was so sleepy liao....in the drizzle, started walking briskly back...reached sci park, rain again...in the end i think everybody dying to get back liao...so that guy offered to shelter me with his windbreaker. it wasn't until he guarranteed that i will be dry till we reach our block that i gave way....

the logic behind it.....it's quite confusing...if u feel something special for that girl/guy, we tend to purposely avoid her/him cuz u feel conscious about it....others you regard as friends....you just dun realise.....

reach the back gate.....realised it's locked....wanted to climb over but met with violent objections from me...so walk to KR hall then walk the long long way way the A1 bus route.....that really got me hungry. but good thing was, i was kept warm by the windbreaker....no flu yet....only headache...

we're going to chinablack on thurs.

Am mugging in the med library!!!was mugging.....

i'm going into serious studying now, next week is my first CA....

how's life everyone? feels refreshed after going home this weekend. realised that my bro misses me too....haha, he was telling me this long story about how he and his friends played basketball...with no special incident happening whatsoever. guess he was just finding something to talk about.....hahaha.

on the other hand, i've added another shameless event to my life this weekend.......i can't believe it!