Great misfortune have befallen me. i spilt water on my laptop....those of u who have seen my laptop will know how much pride i have in it, coupled with the fact that it costs quite a bit....my heart really aches...the keyboard doesn't work...dare not try to switch it on for fear i will face a useless laptop. worse still, i don't know what and how to tell my mom that i spoilt my laptop just like that. now i'm in a sorry state, have to go aruond hunting for laptops and computers to use, millions and zillions thanks to faith and amy who have Graciously allowed me to use their laptop....=)...
NUSPS has thrown quite a few stuff for me to handle and frankly have little confidence that i can carry the projects through first of all they want a mid autumn festival party on 11 sep....so soon when they haven't even allowed me to recruit my com and the seniors haven't formally handed over. then i have to organise this holiday get away for the whole pharmacy dept....WOW....but i can tell that it's going ot be fun....just wondering if my activities will clash with bizcom and focc...
rite have to go...time is a great athelete.
Friday, August 29, 2003
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
I'm writing this during lect now. you can't imagine how boring learning repeats of stuff you mugged so hard for, is like....and this module is supposed to be the least repeating one already. but the problem is, it's physical chem!!! i thought i'll be dealing with organic chem and could throw away anything to do with physics and physical chem...
the past hunts you, isn't it true. last night was on icq when this "old" friend picked up conversation with me. "old" coz we went out /dated for a while but didn't go further. in that sense, he's not a bf rite? well, apparently after i talked about uni life, union ball and showed him the photos, he brought the topic back to how our suppose
d relationship just ended in silence. either i have great understanding abilities or he was an open book, when we started i knew that he liked me, towards the end i also knew that he wanted and had never given up on his crush. After prom, he decided to go after her again, so i let him go. personally, i was also looking for a reason to tell him "i don't love you". wonder if its the photos or he genuinely felt bad and wanted to catch up as friends, he suggested that we meet up one of these days.....shallow? i wouldn't know
Wonders more, why i always come back to this topic. received feedback that i have a slack timetable and should have taken 6 modules, but now it's too late already. only thing to do now is do extra well for this sem's modules
8.30plus am
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the past hunts you, isn't it true. last night was on icq when this "old" friend picked up conversation with me. "old" coz we went out /dated for a while but didn't go further. in that sense, he's not a bf rite? well, apparently after i talked about uni life, union ball and showed him the photos, he brought the topic back to how our suppose
d relationship just ended in silence. either i have great understanding abilities or he was an open book, when we started i knew that he liked me, towards the end i also knew that he wanted and had never given up on his crush. After prom, he decided to go after her again, so i let him go. personally, i was also looking for a reason to tell him "i don't love you". wonder if its the photos or he genuinely felt bad and wanted to catch up as friends, he suggested that we meet up one of these days.....shallow? i wouldn't know
Wonders more, why i always come back to this topic. received feedback that i have a slack timetable and should have taken 6 modules, but now it's too late already. only thing to do now is do extra well for this sem's modules
8.30plus am
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Sunday, August 24, 2003
VERY VERY tired.....
was at the food court for "lunch" just now and my friends say i look lost and spacey....plain tired loh....slept too little over the past few days. usually i need 12 hours one loh.....
don't know why i'm still writing this now, when i'm supposed to be doing my essay which is due tonight. maybe blogging helps kick start the writing spirit....hopefully i don't get stuck while commenting in my essay later.
saw faith's blog...wah she a lot of time to go and update leh...but then most prob she types much much faster than this and it;s second nature to her already...anyway, felt that i need to let something out, sooner or later.
i miss home....it's true, though i don't like to admit it , i see it as a weakness. but the fact that my mom hung up on the phone promptly when i told her i'm not going home this weekend disturbs me, i tot she would want to talk to me more....miss my siblings too...surprisingly i don't miss my bed, it's probably stacked with stuff my family wants to pass to me....
i'm stressed with school work. i used to be far ahead of my classmates in school work, now, i'm falling behind average. people who know me long enough know i hate this feeling....but, i just never got down to reading my newly bought textbook, i even went to buy a textbook already....sigh....really want to appear all knowledgeable in tut class next week....MUST TRY.
but the main reason why i haven't done that is because i'm spending time trying to prove that i'm good or as good as my classmates in usp....think i'm really out of their league.....feel very stupid.
other than that, i got elected as sport and social director of NUSPS. not very impressive but i like the job, can lead and play at the same time, I LIKE......feel that i need to do something fast to prove my ability to the seniors....but i'm so tied up with work....how?
and i'm beginning to lose interest in bizcom. the reason why i'm staying and not really breathing a word about this is, i like to be around my friends and i like to be part of something big. and if you're in biz com, you sort of know everything that's going on around on campus....and it's just wrong to me to pull out of biz com, after the interview and all. the only reason i'm thinking of pulling out is that i'm thinking my too busy and want some free time to myself....but that's a bad reason and it does not hold water....
i really dun mind screwing up my life, if i had a lovelife to fall back on. you know, have someone to complain to, and make u feel better thinking that he's in this together with you. Then all i needed to do want start to realise i have a rather good target in my senior class, the next time i knew, i found out that he's probably attached to a classmate of mine. and it disturbs me ALOT....oh well, accordnig to the life section in the straits times as mentioned by faith, Men love women who love being alive, who are charming, interesting and engaging. hahaha, i think i only have genteelness lacking....but anyway that's a REALLY high opinion of myself..hahaha.
NEED TO PROVE MYSELF.
was at the food court for "lunch" just now and my friends say i look lost and spacey....plain tired loh....slept too little over the past few days. usually i need 12 hours one loh.....
don't know why i'm still writing this now, when i'm supposed to be doing my essay which is due tonight. maybe blogging helps kick start the writing spirit....hopefully i don't get stuck while commenting in my essay later.
saw faith's blog...wah she a lot of time to go and update leh...but then most prob she types much much faster than this and it;s second nature to her already...anyway, felt that i need to let something out, sooner or later.
i miss home....it's true, though i don't like to admit it , i see it as a weakness. but the fact that my mom hung up on the phone promptly when i told her i'm not going home this weekend disturbs me, i tot she would want to talk to me more....miss my siblings too...surprisingly i don't miss my bed, it's probably stacked with stuff my family wants to pass to me....
i'm stressed with school work. i used to be far ahead of my classmates in school work, now, i'm falling behind average. people who know me long enough know i hate this feeling....but, i just never got down to reading my newly bought textbook, i even went to buy a textbook already....sigh....really want to appear all knowledgeable in tut class next week....MUST TRY.
but the main reason why i haven't done that is because i'm spending time trying to prove that i'm good or as good as my classmates in usp....think i'm really out of their league.....feel very stupid.
other than that, i got elected as sport and social director of NUSPS. not very impressive but i like the job, can lead and play at the same time, I LIKE......feel that i need to do something fast to prove my ability to the seniors....but i'm so tied up with work....how?
and i'm beginning to lose interest in bizcom. the reason why i'm staying and not really breathing a word about this is, i like to be around my friends and i like to be part of something big. and if you're in biz com, you sort of know everything that's going on around on campus....and it's just wrong to me to pull out of biz com, after the interview and all. the only reason i'm thinking of pulling out is that i'm thinking my too busy and want some free time to myself....but that's a bad reason and it does not hold water....
i really dun mind screwing up my life, if i had a lovelife to fall back on. you know, have someone to complain to, and make u feel better thinking that he's in this together with you. Then all i needed to do want start to realise i have a rather good target in my senior class, the next time i knew, i found out that he's probably attached to a classmate of mine. and it disturbs me ALOT....oh well, accordnig to the life section in the straits times as mentioned by faith, Men love women who love being alive, who are charming, interesting and engaging. hahaha, i think i only have genteelness lacking....but anyway that's a REALLY high opinion of myself..hahaha.
NEED TO PROVE MYSELF.
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
find that i've been speaking without thinking too much today...let's say this pharmacy senior of mine got a worse impression of me after every sentence i made.....OH NO!!
surprised myself by writing 2 "emotional" emails to my pharmacy class within a few days..... shall post it here...but can't find the first one already....
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Dear Shiwu, (my class rep)
you are making a BIG mistake when you said that our
morale is low.....last week maybe this was the case,
but not anymore.....
i just went down to bukit timah plaza to watch the 2nd
dance group practise.....namely carolyn, sherlyn and
rachel and amy, you girls are GREAT, in fact, kenneth
was very pleased to get the bunch of you, i'm sure you
already can tell that..and the guys....i really
appreciate all your efforts and the lengths you all
went through to make it for the rehearsals and step
out to volunteer for the dance....who could have known
that yen hon can dance so well...and arthur, is there
anything you are not good at? don't worry david and
justin you all are just as good. We aim to win!
there are many ways we gauge a victory. one is by
winning the top prize for the dance competition, the
other is from how united the group is. from today,
i'll say that WE HAVE WON TOP PRIZE, cuz the guys are
practically brothers already....and the girls....yeah
girl power.!more importantly, we have quite broken the
gender barrier that seems to be ever present in
lectures.
i'm sure with all the hard work all of us have put in,
you'll never regret signing up for the dance
competition. may the memories serve you for life.
Cheers.
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basically, a close friend and ex classmate of mine passed away.....i'm really saddened by it.....but i guess he wouldn't want me to lose my bubbliness coz of his passing away....i guess i'll feel the impact of it by and by. he's a grreat friend, always concerned, my image consultant too, and my part of my confidence, a huge part too, he's the one telling me how good i look in this outfit and terrible in another. guess it helped that we spent a good 4 hours shopping, chit chating on the day he died...will treasure the clothes and earing i bought with him...but the point of my emails was that i've found a choreographer for the trifac bash dance compeition for the pharmacy, medicine and dentistry people, ironically during my late friend's wake. and it took lots of persuasion of lots of people who aren't even in pharmacy to get the help, in the end my class didn't rise up to the occasion. so i wrote a long email expressing all the above to them. the next day the guys in class held a conference to get at least 3 of them to dance, as we had no lack of femal dancers. was really glad they understood and didn't "leave me disappointed" (words from my email).
feel so tired now. but so happy i'm part of biz com 25!
surprised myself by writing 2 "emotional" emails to my pharmacy class within a few days..... shall post it here...but can't find the first one already....
______________________________________________________________
Dear Shiwu, (my class rep)
you are making a BIG mistake when you said that our
morale is low.....last week maybe this was the case,
but not anymore.....
i just went down to bukit timah plaza to watch the 2nd
dance group practise.....namely carolyn, sherlyn and
rachel and amy, you girls are GREAT, in fact, kenneth
was very pleased to get the bunch of you, i'm sure you
already can tell that..and the guys....i really
appreciate all your efforts and the lengths you all
went through to make it for the rehearsals and step
out to volunteer for the dance....who could have known
that yen hon can dance so well...and arthur, is there
anything you are not good at? don't worry david and
justin you all are just as good. We aim to win!
there are many ways we gauge a victory. one is by
winning the top prize for the dance competition, the
other is from how united the group is. from today,
i'll say that WE HAVE WON TOP PRIZE, cuz the guys are
practically brothers already....and the girls....yeah
girl power.!more importantly, we have quite broken the
gender barrier that seems to be ever present in
lectures.
i'm sure with all the hard work all of us have put in,
you'll never regret signing up for the dance
competition. may the memories serve you for life.
Cheers.
______________________________________________________________
basically, a close friend and ex classmate of mine passed away.....i'm really saddened by it.....but i guess he wouldn't want me to lose my bubbliness coz of his passing away....i guess i'll feel the impact of it by and by. he's a grreat friend, always concerned, my image consultant too, and my part of my confidence, a huge part too, he's the one telling me how good i look in this outfit and terrible in another. guess it helped that we spent a good 4 hours shopping, chit chating on the day he died...will treasure the clothes and earing i bought with him...but the point of my emails was that i've found a choreographer for the trifac bash dance compeition for the pharmacy, medicine and dentistry people, ironically during my late friend's wake. and it took lots of persuasion of lots of people who aren't even in pharmacy to get the help, in the end my class didn't rise up to the occasion. so i wrote a long email expressing all the above to them. the next day the guys in class held a conference to get at least 3 of them to dance, as we had no lack of femal dancers. was really glad they understood and didn't "leave me disappointed" (words from my email).
feel so tired now. but so happy i'm part of biz com 25!
Thursday, August 14, 2003
SKI yoghurt is nice.....
just came back from Zouk....found that phuture has a nice ambience than zouk...my first time there btw. me and my friend play in the promotion games and won quite a bit....got 3 $30 vouchers for iRiver products....2 $5 vouchers for brosproducts...a blow-up pillow...and a very squeezable bear....biggest take away....didn't drink at all....good thing....left early...good thing too....transport is not a trouble....like the feeling.
and went SHOPPING today....and bought 3 tops.....OMG....only intended to buy one chiong top...but in the end bought 3 casual tops....but i really like them. tried on lots of clothes too hehe....there was this black dress with a draping collar and sort of necklace chain on it from top shop....very nice....best thing, i look good in it...and there was this spag strap like thing from another shop but it has a zip in the front all thru it.....nice too....specially designed to show off your belly button...hahaha.....so long didn't shop already....enjoyed myself....
yesterday went for bridge lesson.....kaoz....was almost like the only girl there...then later my 2 friends zao4 didn't tell me somemore....and to top that up...kenna bullied by the guys i was playing with....kept losing...*sob sob*......and when the in charged told me that no pharmacy students join the club before....that was the ultimate,.....began doubting.....must be a serious reason why there aren't any pharmacy students in bridge right?
achieved something new yesterday.....i didn't eat breakfast lunch and dinner....or rather anything substantial....only eat 4 small pieces of biscuit, 2 small slices of my coconut cake...and some wang4 wang4.....really made myself wonder how i survived....
just came back from Zouk....found that phuture has a nice ambience than zouk...my first time there btw. me and my friend play in the promotion games and won quite a bit....got 3 $30 vouchers for iRiver products....2 $5 vouchers for brosproducts...a blow-up pillow...and a very squeezable bear....biggest take away....didn't drink at all....good thing....left early...good thing too....transport is not a trouble....like the feeling.
and went SHOPPING today....and bought 3 tops.....OMG....only intended to buy one chiong top...but in the end bought 3 casual tops....but i really like them. tried on lots of clothes too hehe....there was this black dress with a draping collar and sort of necklace chain on it from top shop....very nice....best thing, i look good in it...and there was this spag strap like thing from another shop but it has a zip in the front all thru it.....nice too....specially designed to show off your belly button...hahaha.....so long didn't shop already....enjoyed myself....
yesterday went for bridge lesson.....kaoz....was almost like the only girl there...then later my 2 friends zao4 didn't tell me somemore....and to top that up...kenna bullied by the guys i was playing with....kept losing...*sob sob*......and when the in charged told me that no pharmacy students join the club before....that was the ultimate,.....began doubting.....must be a serious reason why there aren't any pharmacy students in bridge right?
achieved something new yesterday.....i didn't eat breakfast lunch and dinner....or rather anything substantial....only eat 4 small pieces of biscuit, 2 small slices of my coconut cake...and some wang4 wang4.....really made myself wonder how i survived....
Monday, August 11, 2003
received a rose today. an artificial one...the kind that you make it out of plastic material. but know what? he actually bought it for his crush to apologise to her....dun think it'll work though......and he decided to give some of his females friends one each too....sigh sigh....
anyway, went to help out at the welfare bazaar today...sat there with justin from my class for one hour, met lots of med friends from seniors too....lots of pharmacy friends dropped by too....but my booth got nothing to show...not to mention sell/ promote....when finally the stuff came....they were all working clothes...not exactly saleable material...and to top it up, the booth beside mine is selling new Lea clothes..feel like hopping over to their booth instead...
today's morning lect was.....generally feeling was, the lecturer is good...speaks understandable english but the content is a repeat of a level....how not to be bored leh? so spent my time doing the secret pal thingy i'm organising for my class....think we really need to get out of our clicks and mix around...this will be a good way. YAY!! so happy i finally carried thru the first part of this "project"....got everybody a sp by the end of 2nd lect.
talking about 2nd lect....whoa...killer man....after not touching any organic chem for 8 months....today we were introduced to new compounds and functional groups.....think no matter how good we are....all of us had to admit we were lost in there....and it's only the first lect.....tsk tsk...must go get a text book to read....
faith: i'll definitely do that......
anyway, went to help out at the welfare bazaar today...sat there with justin from my class for one hour, met lots of med friends from seniors too....lots of pharmacy friends dropped by too....but my booth got nothing to show...not to mention sell/ promote....when finally the stuff came....they were all working clothes...not exactly saleable material...and to top it up, the booth beside mine is selling new Lea clothes..feel like hopping over to their booth instead...
today's morning lect was.....generally feeling was, the lecturer is good...speaks understandable english but the content is a repeat of a level....how not to be bored leh? so spent my time doing the secret pal thingy i'm organising for my class....think we really need to get out of our clicks and mix around...this will be a good way. YAY!! so happy i finally carried thru the first part of this "project"....got everybody a sp by the end of 2nd lect.
talking about 2nd lect....whoa...killer man....after not touching any organic chem for 8 months....today we were introduced to new compounds and functional groups.....think no matter how good we are....all of us had to admit we were lost in there....and it's only the first lect.....tsk tsk...must go get a text book to read....
faith: i'll definitely do that......
Sunday, August 10, 2003
Reason why i didn't elaborate on the guy: i find out that he's got a crush and she's not me....
Reasons i have a good impression of him:
1)he has the gift of gab
2)he really looks out for his friends
3)he's nice to get along with
4)he's smart, ok-looking, interesting
5)can't tell he plays harmonica too
6)he loves humanitarian work.
too good to be true right....that's why...that's why...
Reasons i have a good impression of him:
1)he has the gift of gab
2)he really looks out for his friends
3)he's nice to get along with
4)he's smart, ok-looking, interesting
5)can't tell he plays harmonica too
6)he loves humanitarian work.
too good to be true right....that's why...that's why...
Saturday, August 09, 2003
have lots to say...but was prevented by my own fatigue and malaysia's terrible power system...
anyway, want to say i had a good week, it falls within my expectations, and i got to meet many friends, made new friends and got to catch up with really "old" ones.
Fruitful week.
first, i found out my alcohol tolerance level. accompanied by how to tell i'm drunk..(the area around my eyes turn red, very interesting sign), and i'm a bit allergic to alcohol. *flings hands in the air* off all things, to be allergic to seafood and alcohol. but alcohol is a diff kind of allergy, seafood is atopic.
second, found a really nice guy....*hehe*...best part, i think got chance..
third, settled my laptop stuff and learnt to fully make use of nuscast...hahahaha
can't think of the rest...that's why my memory is failing, i'm getting old ...
anyway, want to say i had a good week, it falls within my expectations, and i got to meet many friends, made new friends and got to catch up with really "old" ones.
Fruitful week.
first, i found out my alcohol tolerance level. accompanied by how to tell i'm drunk..(the area around my eyes turn red, very interesting sign), and i'm a bit allergic to alcohol. *flings hands in the air* off all things, to be allergic to seafood and alcohol. but alcohol is a diff kind of allergy, seafood is atopic.
second, found a really nice guy....*hehe*...best part, i think got chance..
third, settled my laptop stuff and learnt to fully make use of nuscast...hahahaha
can't think of the rest...that's why my memory is failing, i'm getting old ...
Tuesday, August 05, 2003
so long.....finally got my notebook configured today.....and it was quite an adventure....
got back to my room after playing captains ball for pharmacy orientation....hahaha, quite fun...the people..one guy eric was so sorry he "caused" me to fall..actually is i wanted to intercept the ball, bo4 cheng2 gong1 then fall one...then got another guy act like a girl...totally "no ethics" at all....we scream...he also scream and scream louder than us....tsk tsk tsk.....then the more interesting part was that me and this other girl, michelle, put up a great show, with regards to showing how close girls can be...the seniors cannot stand us...hahahahaha
Went to the comp centre...i meet a year one who is going to study there, she told me i should go to the co-op comp centre...so i trudged there, then the people there made me wait like quite long before somebody came over to tell me i have to go to the 2nd level of comp centre....so bo bian....walk back again....then after quite a while got everything configured...then went to buy the lan cable from george's mart...then realised i didn't have my wallet with me on my way back to my block...so walk all the way back again...then the cashier said never see my wallet.....eng liao loh....so went all the way to make a report....then walk all the way back to my room...notebook actually 1.5 kg but by the time i reach my room it weighed a ton...just put down my notebook, the security called me to say they got my wallet liao.....elated man!!!!....was thinking whether i should call my mom to tell her to cancel my account already.....then thnking of how she's going to scold me...if i called her again...it'll be the 4th time i'm called her today.....
so there ends my adventurous day....
was thinking that M1 and singtel are such copycats...all got free incoming now...especially M1...first they come up with a few adverts saying how free incoming service is so inconvenient....then they have this new plan....what can i say....
got back to my room after playing captains ball for pharmacy orientation....hahaha, quite fun...the people..one guy eric was so sorry he "caused" me to fall..actually is i wanted to intercept the ball, bo4 cheng2 gong1 then fall one...then got another guy act like a girl...totally "no ethics" at all....we scream...he also scream and scream louder than us....tsk tsk tsk.....then the more interesting part was that me and this other girl, michelle, put up a great show, with regards to showing how close girls can be...the seniors cannot stand us...hahahahaha
Went to the comp centre...i meet a year one who is going to study there, she told me i should go to the co-op comp centre...so i trudged there, then the people there made me wait like quite long before somebody came over to tell me i have to go to the 2nd level of comp centre....so bo bian....walk back again....then after quite a while got everything configured...then went to buy the lan cable from george's mart...then realised i didn't have my wallet with me on my way back to my block...so walk all the way back again...then the cashier said never see my wallet.....eng liao loh....so went all the way to make a report....then walk all the way back to my room...notebook actually 1.5 kg but by the time i reach my room it weighed a ton...just put down my notebook, the security called me to say they got my wallet liao.....elated man!!!!....was thinking whether i should call my mom to tell her to cancel my account already.....then thnking of how she's going to scold me...if i called her again...it'll be the 4th time i'm called her today.....
so there ends my adventurous day....
was thinking that M1 and singtel are such copycats...all got free incoming now...especially M1...first they come up with a few adverts saying how free incoming service is so inconvenient....then they have this new plan....what can i say....
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