Screwed....

can't go to the skin specialist for my leg...cuz it's my fault, after having fun (which sounds like a sin to my father), and spending money on it, i have to spend money on injuries which i incurred during my expensive fun, just because i don't know how to take care of myself.

i'm so clueless about what i'm going to do with my life....i'm just drifting along, whereas people are so organised and focused on their objectives...they plan and take part in everything for the sake of the future.....

i don't know why i'm keeping my life...probably because i won't know what will happen to me after that, maybe coz i live only once...i'm once again clueless....maybe i shouldn't try so hard to keep my friends....wait for them to take the initiative....like i've always been doing....so tired so tired...