Jeremy gave away my bible....says that i don't use it anyway. i'm hurt that he goes around telling people that. true i don't conduct QT consistently, not even often now... but the prsence of the bible in my room gives me a sense of security, that God is with me all the way, he's there to comfort me when i'm so tired yet i have so much work to do. when i'm seriously distressed, i can flip the pages of his word... to just read a verse or so... and jeremy gave it away. now i'm away from my family, from jeremy and from the bible. the last semblance of christianity in me. he gave it away.

i'm hurt, a friend brushes me aside whenever i try to go nearer figuratively. i betrayed another friend... and more friend don't talk to me for fear that i gossip. it's all my fault. i shall receed into the background/into my shell again... too many friends...i can't handle. can't handle.