am chewing on my store of coconut candy which i promised myself to only have one everyday...

woke up today to a phone call from my mom...telling me to go fetch her from the customs... after that home_lunch_go cut hair_went swimming_home_tv_dinner_tv_internet....this is an example of a slightly more exciting day than i usually have...

supposed to go sentosa today for union camp dry run... but my sister has to leave really early and there's no transport for me..and my flu...i use up a whole packet of tissue while i travel...that's how bad it is...can't recover.. maybe it's my sleeping hours..not accustomed to waking in the morning...that's why...maybe it's because i'm too weak...have not been exercising...

now i'm caught in a dilemma whether to turn up at src tomorrow or not...on one hand, i think i got to turn up....on the other...i don't want to show of my blubber to all these people who look good and i'm not comfortable roughing it out in all those camp activities with them...and my toes have been injured by jeremy while wrestling...
(i know i'm finding more and more excuses not to go)

really at a loss... can't decide...nobody to consult..