finally the sem has come to half time.....sigh.... the only thing i'm happy about is that jeremy's coming back. have 4 projects to do...yah yah yah i rattle on about my 4 projects everyday and nvr really try to complete them. and then i go about my life doing things like salsa, salsa, salsa ( i don't think i'm doing anything else). then take up my time and energy. sigh, now i'm not even doing anything jewelry making. so stressed... i put on weight....now i look terrible.

plus today got sports carnival. 9am to 2 pm. my sister say i'm very free. then got burnt on my limbs and face and neck.... if i went naked, or not with t shirt i might have gotten myself tanned red but that's besides the point. the point is i'm complaining/ahppy with myself that i got myself tanned. coz going by usual convention, tanned = fit. so...but i'm super red...hope the burns subside quickly. if they don't, i can't wear any top which does not have a round neck cut.

i bought my first bottle of aloe vera gel, first bottle of something that deals with sun burns.... even the bottle of sunblock i have at home was bought by my mom... and it's been there since i can remember.... so those are not counted. feel so rpoud of myself... but aloe vera gel does not treat burn, it just soothes the pain... which is not good enough, coz have to reapply and reapply all the time. i've even taken the trouble to move down to an air-conned study room (like what i'm doing now) to help matters.

did i mention that i was refereeing handball tournament today.... i think there were 10 matches... we were playing round robin.... siao! i never concentrated so hard for games before. one match after another... was very dehydrated, am seriously burnt and was very tired. partly coz i slept at only 3 am yesterday night, was using msn, i crashed after bathing. didn't have lunch... only had a piece of bread for breakfast which i stole from the fridge. i'm sure they don't mind... bread is always hardest to finish...

anyway, i decided not to go back to malaysia today, hope i dun live to regret it tonight... might feel lonely... didn't have my chicken chop from the western food stall at the non air-con canteen so i don't feel so good. plus when i realised it was chingay today... i couldn't make it in time to get a seat at orchard.... so... very sad, i've always wanted to watch chingay live...now i that i have the freedom to, i'm too tired to do so. very soon i'll grow old and lose the energy to go out. (oh no, i'm turning 21 this year, so old, adult...but still very much in the control of my mum)