on a depressing note...the fact that i'm not going to see jeremy for 4 months is not hitting me in full yet..(thank god!) i'll be so alone in NUS, in the holidays...nobody to eat dinner with, nobody to make me study for tests, nobody to advise me on my papers, nobody to go out with impromtu, nobody to play with...(yup, jeremy is a good playmate) sigh... don't blame me for harping on my personal problems and relationships...i'll trying not to..but this is my blog...i'll say whatever i want... lots of people read it but don't leave a footprint what so ever... saw ling's blog, simin's blog...we're all blogging about the same things all the time, i mean there's a theme running thru the blogs...is our love lives, hate to admit that this area always surfaces from our thought...but it is what's going on in the back of our heads...

it's very disturbing, disrupting, to make adjustments to your life, from being independent then to dependent, then to independent again...then as if to fill the void in my life i'll go fishing for guys again....create small waves in others' and my life...so as to make Something happen... in a not so exciting life of ours. i mean, all the cartoons and movies etc allows us to put ourselves in the center of the whole, everything revolves around us...as if that's what happens in real life. now i watch cartoons with a tinge of distaste..actually not a tinge...it's with distaste and fascination at how gullible children are...

i want to learn dancing, but which one? jazz, tango, waltz?